I had a hissy fit yesterday. What is a hissy fit you ask? Today mine was when I had hauled into the house a large number of groceries and was trying to prepare my solo Thanksgiving dinner and put away groceries at the same time, all the while dealing with shoulder/arm pain and toes pain. Remember I fell last March and my humerus bone by the shoulder shattered, and now I am living with a painful toe because Parkinson’s Disease is making my toes in one foot to curl and bang the ends of the toes onto the bottom of my shoe. It has been very sore since last Thursday’s hike. It all got to be too much so I had a hissy fit banging pots and yelling that living with 24 hours a day pain was too much.
What is frustrating is that over this past year I’ve been trying to preserve my knees from deteriorating to the point of requiring knee replacements since having had two spine surgeries I felt I’d had enough surgeries (not to mention several previous ones) only to be hit in August with the fact that I now require a shoulder replacement because my broken shoulder has not healed properly.
I have been brought up short tonight as I read Joni Eareckson Tada’s Chapter 28 “Surprising” Trials in her book Secret Strength. She quotes the apostle Peter:
“Dear friends, do not be surprised at the painful trial you are suffering as though something strange were happening to you.” (1 Peter 4:12, NIV) Joni also quotes the apostle James: “Consider it all joy, mybrothers, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance” (James 1:2-3).
Joni writes that these trials are producing patience, maturity and all-around good character. Do I really want patience, maturity and good character to be part of me? It is a challenge I need to accept. Joni has been a quadriplegic since she was 17 years old. I derive a lot of encouragement from reading what she writes.